(Source: 1-self-harm, via hideawaywoods)
to have the thing that i miss the most back. but it keeps on reminding me about the past. which is not healthy. but what i am now is because of the past. means that i’m already in a bad shape.
these are the things that i repeatedly say to myself every single day. so i won’t do the same stupid mistake which will hurt my baby again. i love her. i’d go crazy without her. seriously, shit ever happened when she pushed me away.
i shouldn’t get caught up in the moment. *slap slap*
just a month away before we can finally stay together. we won’t be separated by distance anymore. i love her. i really do.
i know the fact that i have to keep reminding myself that i love her doesn’t look good. but maybe it’s just the distance messing up with my feelings.
i know. i know. i was supposed to buy clothes for my future nephew but all of them sux so…i went to the beach instead. then went for a shisha. and it’s great. although it has been a while since i last hang with my gaybuddy and the connection feels a lil bit less. but i feel happy at least.
Dear future nephew,
You can say, Usu E is very excited to meet you, play with you, take care of you. Today, Usu E received some pocket money from her Mak and she suddenly think of you. Usu E is so excited to buy a baby clothes for you til she keep on browsing the online shop for newborn clothes. Maybe tomorrow Usu E will hit the mall and find some cute clothes for you. I know it’s too early and that you will only arrive in August but that is how excited Usu E is! Usu E will be home for Aidiladha, Usu E hope Usu E will meet you then.